I have struggled for a while now
with my self-esteem during pregnancy. I know that weight gain is a
normal part of pregnancy, but I feel like I am becoming an unhealthy
whale and not beautiful. I also know that a lot of women suffer from low
self-esteem whether they are pregnant or not. I suffered from low
self-esteem before I was pregnant and worked hard to get to a point
was at peace with how I felt I looked. I went for walks, watched my
weight, and made an effort to drop down to a comfortable place.
I think about what I did to get to that place, I have to think to
myself, "Was I being healthy?" Years ago I worked out obsessively and
gave up my gym
membership at the advice of a mental health professional so that I
wouldn't go every day of the week for hours on end.
that, I let myself go for a while and felt miserable. I worked
on getting back to where I wanted to be by walking and rollerblading. I
freely admit that sometimes I would forget to eat (food never really
interested me) or found it too difficult to eat. The difficulty came
from having to eat a gluten-free diet (not by choice, for medical
reasons), so it was hard to just grab something on the go.
and fitness have always interested me, but now, I find myself wondering
what does it mean to be healthy? Is there a difference between being
healthy and being well. What is wellness anyway?
looked in many places for those answers. Although health and
wellness are words used interchangeably in society today, I feel like
they are two separate things. Reading the different definitions of
health and healthy, I think that it is best used to describe the
physical body although it at times can include the mind. Usually when
someone is viewed as healthy they are free of disease, pain, and
injuries. Where wellness is the overall state of someone encompassing
all aspects of life and lifestyle including health.
I started to look at my overall well-being instead of just my health, I
realized that I had gone about things all wrong. I was focusing
on one thing, weight, instead of the whole picture. I was neglecting the
other parts of wellness and even my health. I realized it isn't good
for me to look at my weight gain during pregnancy as unhealthy as it is a
healthy and natural part of preparing for and nurturing the growing
child inside of me. I also realized that simply by recognizing my
feelings about gaining weight and the various body changes I am going
through is a step toward improving my overall wellness.
these realizations, I decided that I was going to work on my wellness. I am working on creating several goals for my
wellness. I decided to break the goals down into 5 areas and place them
under headings that I recognized and felt connected with. I choose to
break them down into Earth, Air, Fire, Water, and Spirit as I have
worked spiritually with these elements and can relate to the aspects of
In coming posts, I plan on outlining what
these areas means in my journey of wellness and the different goals I
have associated with them. I hope you will join me on this journey.